I wanted to write something well-thought out and clever, and even organized, but my current state won’t allow me to do so, so I’ll take the “stream of consciousness” route. Lately I’ve been feeling “wheighed down” by quite a few things. I’m daily in prayer about some things that have caused me to be grieved on the inside. Some of which have to do with me in my personal life, and others have to do with other people. I sorrow over my own shortcomings, but I continue to give God the glory and praise. He is ever true and ever faithful and always good…I’m the weak one. I have things that I struggle with, but I trust that God will deal with them according to His will and timing. Even the apostle Paul had a thorn in his flesh, a problem he dealt with, that he begged God to remove, but He wouldn’t, and instead God told him that His grace is sufficient for him and that His strength is made perfect in weakness. Now, whether the things I’m dealing with are just temporary means for God to accomplish something in and through me, or whether it’s something He will use on an ongoing basis to His glory, I’m not sure which one it is yet. I will continue to seek Him first and stay in prayer. I have a bad habit of getting impatient and panicky about things, especially matters of the faith, such as things in the Word of God that I don’t yet understand, and areas where I find myself to be lacking, and when I discover sin in my life. It is my everyday prayer that God sanctifies me and teaches me to walk in holiness, denying myself. I also pray for God to teach me patience. I’m finding out that it takes patience to learn to be patient. I keep asking for patience, and I keep finding myself in situations where I tend to become impatient..lol. And I know that it’s going to keep happening so that patience and longsuffering will be built up within me.
In a strange way, I like the fact that my shortcomings and my personal struggles keep causing me to go running to my Heavenly Father in prayer. In Him is my satisfaction, my joy, and my comfort. It is through Christ that I realize where my strength comes from. I constantly go running to my Source, my Provider. I’m not perfect by any means, and I deal with the frustration of the flesh everyday..longing to be conformed to the image of Christ. In the meantime, I’m glad to cling to my Savior, trusting in His righteousness and His sacrifice. GOD IS GRACIOUS!!!
Something else I’ve been weighed down by is a borderline overwhelming sorrow for others. I have a particular concern for false teachers/deceivers and those who are being deceived. A lot of professing Christians are being thoroughly deceived and beguiled by silver-tongued wolves in sheep’s clothing. I get so upset when I see the precious, life-giving Word of God being twisted, taken out of context, and abused by people who have no love for God or His people. I get equally upset when I see people feast on that garbage like starving raccoons. Some of them are getting what they deserve because the Bible does tell us that people won’t desire sound doctrine and won’t want to hear the truth, but instead will heap to themselves teachers who will tell them exactly what they want to hear because they’re promoting the lusts/desires of the people. They’re getting exactly what the Bible tells us they want. Some of them will be stuck there, that’s clear.
But there are some people who are meant to come out from under lies and false teachings..such as myself. I was once fooled by false doctrine, but God, in His great grace and mercy, pulled me out of it, and I’m ever grateful to Him for that. So I’m very sensitive to the fact that people are being deceived, and it is my prayer that God unveils their eyes and exposes the truth of His Word to them. That they come to the saving knowledge of Christ through the TRUE Gospel of Christ. I found out that I was following a false Christ and it TERRIFIED ME TO THE CORE when I recognized it. How I would just LOVE to see more and more brothers and sisters brought to salvation and repentance in the TRUE Christ, the Holy Son of God. It’s not a light issue to me by any means. I stare it in the face everyday. It pains me that some won’t listen. They’d rather cling to the comfortable lies of their beloved pastors and teachers than for one second to entertain the thought that they’ve been lied to and gotten over on, and that their very soul is in danger. People have been sitting in churches for decades and are still ignorant of some of the most important aspects of the Gospel of Christ. My heart grieves for people.
There are some pretty theologically-intelligent people, but nobody on this earth knows everything, so we must never shut our eyes or ears to the knowledge of God’s Word, making sure that all things line up with the Word!. Even what we think we know, we must always confirm it through the Word and prayer. It’s one thing to be shown selective scriptures and have them read over and over and over with the preacher’s twist on them. But it’s a whole other thing to see those very same words in light of the actual CONTEXT and intended meaning the Bible gives it. This extra-biblical, and sometimes anti-biblical, indoctrination sickens me. And I know that if it offends me, then it is no doubt a stench in the nostrils of the Almighty!
There ARE people who are teaching sound doctrine and who handle the Word of Godwith great care, but they seem to be grossly overshadowed by the hucksters who have no real reverence or respect for God or His Word. I am in prayer for the body of Christ. I am moved to compassion for all my brothers and sisters. And for those who contend for the faith and hold to the TRUE Christ, my prayers go up for you and my heart waxes large for you. I pray that God strengthens you and increases your wisdom, knowledge, and understanding, and that He encourages you and keeps you. To God be the glory!
Christ is King!